In the darkness

insert happy sigh here

2005-07-29T13:22:04Z

My first semester of school back in Japan appears to be over. Just... a lot more to go until I graduate.

I'm still not sure why I decided to go for a second undergraduate to be quite honest, but I definately am enjoying it. (As much as anyone can appreciate hour upon hour of schoolwork anyway... ^^;)

You know, I'm going to be sad when, a year and a half from now, Yuugi-kun finishes his time here and I'll be left all alone. ;_; I really do enjoy having him near me outside of class time.

And now, if you excuse me, I have a cold glass of lemonade and a stack of manga calling my name.

I have a feeling that this place may be dead now (think: empty friends page...) but meh. I feel like making a random post and if it's not dead, maybe someone else will follow suit...

tenshi_ryou @ 2005-07-11T10:19:00

2005-07-11T14:21:32Z

Well, I'm feeling better now, thank goodness.

I think all the stress of university is getting to me again. >.<

I need to get out and do something...

tenshi_ryou @ 2005-07-09T22:19:00

2005-07-10T02:21:19Z

I hate feeling sick... :(

tenshi_ryou @ 2005-07-07T20:35:00

2005-07-08T00:47:53Z

Happy birthday, Mokuba-kun. I hope that you have a wonderful time today. It looks like you'll have a busy time at least... >.>

I've been blacking out more often recently, I'm scared.

tenshi_ryou @ 2005-06-24T18:49:00

2005-06-24T23:31:02Z

Well, another week is now over, thank goodness.
The elevator was broken, so I had to take the stairs up to my appartment today. I managed to trip twice. Twice. >.< Luckily, I managed to not tumble down half a flight... ^^;

And now, something for your amusement:

1. Copy and paste this into your journal:
<*font color="yourusername"> <*b>yourusername<*/b><*/font>
2. Eliminate the asterisks.
3. Replace "yourusername" with your user name.
4. See what color you are

tenshi_ryou
*squints* is that black, or dark brown?

Hopefully some of your are "more colourful" than me...

Yuugi-kun's been having nightmares lately. He told me that he sees me being hurt, tortured, killed. I don't know by whom.

He says that it was his fault. That he couldn't move. I don't know any more details than that, unfortunately. All I really do know is that it's reoccurring. When he was sick a few weeks ago, he didn't want me to leave his side, especially when he had just woken up. He seemed so... upset, scared... I don't know quite how to discribe it, but it frightened me a little bit. I don't know if that's when it started, or when it did, but he's told me that he's been having it a lot over the past month. It hurts me to think of him suffering like that.

I feel almost as if I'm responsible. I know I'm not really. After all, I can't control dreams. If I could, he'd have only ones as good and sweet as he is, and therefore deserves. Instead, I find myself caught with my hands tied, and no way to help him out. I hate this feeling!

He tries not to show it that much, but I know they're getting to him. He looks tired a lot. And quite frankly, the dark shade that is characteristic of circles under one's eyes is not the most becoming shade on him. I just hope that he stops having them soon.

Phantom notes

2005-06-19T19:50:12Z

Yesterday was quite a good day.

All right, not too much happened during the main part of the day itself I suppose... I basically did some much needed schoolwork and relaxed before getting ready to go down to the theatre to see Anzu and Mokuba-kun in The Phantom of the Opera.

Yuugi-kun and I met at the station at about 4:00 I suppose. We headed down, and went out to dinner in a restaurant not too far from the theatre. It was a nice meal. ^_^

Not a whole lot happened after that. We walked around for a bit before the theatre opened and then went inside and took our seats. Anzu managed to get us ones that were very good, so we had a wonderful view of the entire stage during the show. I've seen it performed before, but I must say, somehow it still amused me that the word "chadelier" is written on the sheet covering said object up. ^^;

About half an hour later, the show started. It really was wonderful. Anzu was a lot better than she gave herself credit for before (I told you that you'd make a gread Christine). She really shone in the role. She and Mokuba-kun seemed very natural together, especially during Music of the Night. He was quite a good phantom. I wouldn't be suprised if they get criticism for casting someone so young in the role (saying as Erik is traditionally in his early 30s, not a 19-year-old), but it was interesting to see it with that change in interpretation. I never knew that Mokuba-kun was that good a singer, that's for certain. He's grown a lot too (it's hard to believe that he once was the same size as little Yuugi-kun ~~don't kill me!~~). He really did do a good job with being ~~an evil, disformed, sadistic, angel of death~~ Erik. The girl who played Meg looked familliar too, but I can't quite place where I know her from.

After the show, Yuugi-kun and I went down to say hello to our two favourite stars of the show. It seems that we weren't the only ones to do so... the two were rather buisy with people who were congradulating them, and they really did deserve it. ^_^

We did manage to talk to them for a few minutes, still. It was nice just having a conversation with them. We really should do that more often, as we have a few years of catching up to do.

On that note, what happened to our plan of having a get together. Would anyone still be interested in doing that? I'd still be interested in getting something together if you guys wanted to as well.

All in all, I had a wonderful time.

To the cast: Congrats on a wonderful performance. You've gotten a wonderful cast together, and it shows. I hope that the rest of your run goes just as well.

To Yuugi-kun: I told you there was nothing to worry about, didn't I? I just hope you had as good a time with me as I did with you.

I took the bandages off today. It didn't scar, thank goodness. I know Yuugi-kun and I will have to tell the others about ourselves, and the return of the spirits sometime, but I'm afraid to. I don't want people to think Yuugi-kun and I are strange. I don't want them to worry about me, and I certainly don't want anyone to get hurt at my hands.

I think I just need to stop thinking about that for a while. Maybe getting hold of some new sheet music would help. Perhaps that song played before Bouquet's body drops down...

*sigh* I just hope everything ends up all right...

tenshi_ryou @ 2005-06-15T18:39:00

2005-06-15T22:41:54Z

tenshi_ryou is distressed.

If it's not one thing, it's another. Your life is a pitiful wreck, and it's all you ever write about. Why don't you at least make up a happy story for once. Your friends would appreciate that.

brought to you by interim32. wanna know your lj's moodring color? enter your user name and hit the button. (discussion thread)

Am I really that bad? ^^;

Anyway... I was wondering, who all is going to watch Anzu and Mokuba-kun on Saturday? It would be nice to meet up with you guys, maybe have dinner together before the show or something?

tenshi_ryou @ 2005-06-08T21:30:00

2005-06-09T01:43:33Z

Well, today was pretty good, I suppose. I forgot how much people like staring at you when you have bandages wrapped around your arm. Of course, the fact that it's hot out, thus making long sleeves a little impractical doesn't exactly help... -_-

If anyone is wondering, I was out for a walk, and managed to take a nasty fall onto an area where someone had let a bottle shatter. Unfortunately, glass shards arm = not good, so I had to wrap it up for the time being.

That's a lame excuse, but it's the only thing I could think of today when someone asked me, so I suppose I'm stuck with it now. I just hope that this... thing doesn't scar. I really don't want people thinking I'm some sort of sado-masochistic freak. Really, that's the last thing I need right now.

Yuugi-kun, we need to talk.

tenshi_ryou @ 2005-06-07T21:55:00

2005-06-08T02:11:39Z

I take back what I said in my last post.

Something tells me I'm not so sick after all...

This doesn't make sense.
How could he be back?
The voice inside my head...
He was supposed to be gone for good this time. I thought he was.
For the last 5 years, I've managed to survive without a single blackout, mysterious cut, anything that would remind me of him.
Why then, has it all started again?
Why have I been getting chest pains?
Why have I been blacking out?

Why is his identity written in blood on my arm?

tenshi_ryou @ 2005-06-06T19:32:00

2005-06-06T23:37:21Z

Yuugi-kun, is what you had last weekend contageous?

I started getting some sharp chest pains yesterday, and I think I lost conciousness a for a little while this morning...

The sun is in your eyes

2005-06-05T19:20:18Z

I had a pretty good day yesterday.

Yuugi-kun and I went down to the lake on campus in the morning. It was pretty quiet there, which was nice. I think I may end up visiting that spot more often actually. I need a place to go and reflect now and again. ^_^

We stayed there for about an hour and had the lunch I brought. I think Yuugi-kun had forgotten that I am a pretty good cook again… (Now you know why I wanted to be in charge in the kitchen last weekend, huh?) I also gave him my birthday present there. (I hope you like it!) We stayed there for about an hour in total I guess, and then went home, because Anzu had said she might stop by at around noon. We barely beat her back as it was! She stayed for a little while and we all caught up on what we had been up to over the past few years and such. I can’t wait to see her and Mokuba-kun perform. Not too much happened in the afternoon after she left, I guess… we played a couple games and such, but that’s just about it.

Apparently some of Yuugi-kun’s friends take him out clubbing every year on his birthday. I went along, but I have to say that it’s not really my kind of thing. Seriously, I was probably the most antisocial person there. >.<

First of all, they were trying to get me to do some heavy drinking. For those of you who don’t know this already, my alcohol tolerance level is basically nil. Believe me. I’d much rather stick to water. Less fun, maybe, but no hangovers, or forgetting what happened the night before. I’ve had enough experience blacking out, thank you, I’d rather not have self-induced spells to add to those.

Secondly, as I’m guessing most of you know right now, I’m pretty self-conscious.

Ryou Bakura + dancing = occasionally fine, though I'm not good by any means.
Ryou Bakura + dancing in public with people who are intoxicated = O_O *faints*

That being said, I had a good time talking with the people who weren’t quite at the state of heavy drunkenness, and yes, I was dragged out onto the floor a couple times.

All in all, it was pretty good though… ~~just don’t expect me to be doing that on MY birthday!~~

Anyway, I hope that you enjoyed your day, Yuugi-kun, and I hope your head’s not killing you today… ^^;

Happy Birthday, Yuugi-kun

2005-06-04T11:43:43Z

Click me!

tenshi_ryou @ 2005-06-03T16:38:00

2005-06-03T20:39:14Z

Yuugi-kun, if you don't have any plans yet, do you want to come over tomorrow?
I'd like to celebrate with you... ^_~

Well, this week's been pretty good overall. I don't really have that much to say at the moment...

Happy weekend, everyone. ^_^

Filtered from Yuugi-kun

2005-05-28T14:17:50Z

I was thinking.
We all want to get together some time, right?
Well... Yuugi-kun's birthday is next weekend.
What if we were to hold a suprise party for him?

tenshi_ryou @ 2005-05-27T12:59:00

2005-05-27T17:08:26Z

Just to let you guys know, if anyone wants to get in contact with me this weekend, I'll probably be over at Yuugi-kun's.

As for the whole getting together idea, when is everyone free? If we can choose a date, perhaps we can see what is available to do on that day.

Thises and thats

2005-05-25T21:15:36Z

I've been in Japan for nearly a month now, and I think that the jet lag is finally wearing off. ^^; (That's what I get for staying up half the night too often in order to catch up on the first few weeks of classes that I missed when moving back here.) I think I'm completely caught up now, which means I might have a little more free time on my hands. I hope it does at least...

Yuugi-kun's sick. I went over to drop off some things for him, but he didn't answer the door. I hope he feels better soon.
I left them with your next door neighbour, Suzuki-san. She said that she'd make sure they get to you.
Are you feeling any better? I'll come over later to check up if you want...

I hope you guys don't mind, but here's another meme thing. Feel free to post it on your ljs if you so wish, showing which month you were born in.

[EDIT Yeah... doing this the same way as everyone else.]
SEPTEMBER: ~~Suave and compromising.~~ Loving and caring. Careful, cautious and organized. Quiet but able to talk very well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Knows how to console others. Trustworthy, loyal and honest. Does work well. ~~Very confident.~~ Sensitive. Inner and physical beauty. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves ~~sports, leisure and~~ traveling. ~~Hardly shows emotions.~~ Tends to bottle up feelings. ~~Very choosy, especially in relationships.~~ Easily hurt. Takes a long time to recover from emotional hurts. ~~Systematic.~~

JANUARY: Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities
yet easily jealous. Very Stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Showing anger easily. Dislike unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Learns to show emotions

MARCH: Attractive personality. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest.

MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills.. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding.. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt.

AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride of oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Loving and caring. Careful, cautious and organized. Quiet but able to talk very well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Knows how to console others. Trustworthy, loyal and honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Inner and physical beauty. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around.. Secretive. Loves sports, leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Easily hurt. Takes a long time to recover from emotional hurts. Systematic.

OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves him. Loves to takes things at the center. Attractive and suave. Does not lie or pretend. Sympathetic. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Soft-spoken, loving and caring Romantic !!! Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless
provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself.. Does not appreciates praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable

DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egoistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

tenshi_ryou @ 2005-05-23T21:51:00

2005-05-24T01:51:48Z

Would you..
[_] go out with me?
[_] give me your number?
[_] kiss me?
[_] let me kiss you?
[_] watch a movie with me?
[_] let me take you out to dinner?
[_] let me drive you somewhere
[_] take a shower with me?
[_] be my bf/gf?
[_] have a fling with me?
[_] let me buy you a drink?
[_] take me home for the night?
[_] Would you let me sleep in your bed?
[_] Sing car karaoke w/ me?
[_] sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
[_] re-post this for me to answer your questions?
[_] give me a piggyback ride?
[_] Come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere
[_] Lock me in your room and take advantage of me?
[_] lick my cheek?
[_] listen to billy idol with me?
[_] dance with me?
[_] let me make you breakfast?
[_] tap me in the Butt?
[_] help me with homework?
[_] tickle me to death?
[_] let me tickle you?
[_] stick up for me if i was being put down?
[_] caress my body?
[_] play strip poker with me?
[_] say yes if i asked you out?
[_] let me wear your pants?
[_] borrow a pair of my underwear if yours for some reason got ruined?
[_] let me borrow your underwear if for some reason mine got ruined?
[_] get wasted with me?
[_] instant message me?
[_] greet me in public?
[_] hang out with me?
[_] bring me around your friends?
D0 Y0U...
[_] think im cute?
[_] think im hot?
[_] want to kiss me?
[_] want to cuddle wit me?
[_] want to hook up with me?
ARE WE...
[_] aquintences?
[_] friends?
[_] in a relationship?
[_] gonna have kids?
AM i...
[_] smart?
[_] cute?
[_] funny?
[_] cool?
[_] loveable?
[_] adorable?
[_] compassionate?
[_] annoying?
[_] great to be with?
[_] attractive?
[_] mean?
[_] odd?
HAVE Y0U EVER...
[_] thought about me?
[_] thought there might be an "us"?
[_] thought about hookin up with me?
[_] found yourself wanting a kiss from me?
[_] wished i were there?
[_] grabbed me?
[_] had a crush on me?
[_] idolized me?
[_] wanted my number?
[_] had a dream about me?
[_] been distracted by me?
ARE Y0U...
[_] done with this survey?
[_] happy you know me?
[_] mad at me?
[_] thinkin bout me?
[_] going to repost this so that i will return the favor?

OOC: A little question

2005-05-21T20:32:08Z

So... as everyone is starting to post on their ljs, I thought it'd be best to check. Are we assuming that no one's lost contact with everyone else, so they'd know about each other's ljs pretty quickly, or would it be more reasonable if people were to "gain the knowledge" from another friend or whatnot?

I mean... since highschool ended, we would have probably lost track of some of our friends... or am I just being to realistic here for my own good? -_-

tenshi_ryou @ 2005-05-14T15:39:00

2005-05-14T19:44:50Z

You know, sometimes I feel like I was crazy to do this. I mean... I just finished up my exams back in Canada, and what do I do? Grab the first plane out of the country and come to do MORE studying at Tokyo U.

Still, it's great to be back here, especially saying that everyone else is starting to return from the far reaches of the planet too...

Here's to entering the next part of our lives.